Used

 TW: Sexual manipulation

When you touch me

I feel the remnants of him on my skin

 

When you trace your finger along my inner thigh

I not only feel you

But I feel him as well

 

When you try just a little longer to get what you want from me

I freeze

 

I feel used

Like I am only good for one thing in your eyes

I wonder

Do you even know me as a person?

What I like?

What my favourite TV show is?

What kind of breakfast I like in the morning?

 

Sex to me is combined with manipulation

Men trying to crush my will and take from me

It takes a lot of time for me to open up and then still

In a second

The trust is gone

I comply in fear

Of what might be to come if I do not

 

When you trace your finger along my naked skin

I not only feel you

But I feel him as well

You try

I freeze